I choose to love You.

Dear Jesus,

I am sorry. I know that I have sinned against You time and time again. But only today, I suddenly realize how it must have been hurting your heart when I felt the pain today. I've been living with this guilt for the whole day. Until now, this feeling is just so unbearable.

Jesus, I need You. My heart is so burdened and heavy with my sins. I never fail to see them coming back to mind from my unforgotten memory. Although it belongs to the past, I can't seem to leave it alone and move on to the future. Lord, have you forgiven me?

How do I know if I have truly repented? I can say 'sorry' or 'please forgive me' as many times as I want. But how many times has it been truly sincere? Is is my walk with You that isn't strong and closely bonded? Why does it seem that I can never understand Your heart? Or even mine?

GOD. I'm tired of living my life as a hypocrite. I do not deserve the praises and compliments that I receive from others who don't know my true self. Lord, Renew my heart. Cleanse my mind. Refresh my spirit. Humble my soul. I choose to love You.

Amen.

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well, that's the one word that i remember from yesterday morning's MicroEconomics lecture. And the Semestrial Exam Timetable is out! it'll be from the 3rd week of Feb '09. Thank God that the schedule looks quite evenly spaced out...

anyways, after oral com tutorial, i had lunch with yaping & meiting before going up to the IBRC to do our Econs project. at first, i was just feel so lethargic after lunch. but even after mingyong came, i still wasn't able to focus on doing anything!

then at 330pm, we decided to take a break and attended the NUS Talk at LTC-2. we met some of our classmates there too. the speaker was Dr. Helen Chai from the NUS business school. after some questions following her presentation, here is my conclusion:

I need to achieve a GPA of at least 3.6 and my options related to Hospitality in NUS business school are Marketing and Management.

soon after that, i suddenly got really hyped up to completing the Econs project! i was so motivated after that talk to do really well in my studies!

in the evening, i attended the Synergy 2009 briefing. i am getting prepared to PLAY HARD as much as i should WORK HARD! I pray for God's strength and guidance for the next few weeks as i go through this important period!

In Jesus' most precious name. Amen!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!!!

WOW! it has been an awesome start to 2009! on new year's eve, i just thought that i would be simply celebrating the new year at home with my family...

but at around 8pm, i got a msg from jiangwei to countdown with the bbsgb people! i was with jiangwei, ben tan, shawn, yiting, joshua, gregory, christopher, yongjie, weili, keqin & zhengjie at the Marina barrage to watch the awesome fireworks - marking the start of a brand new year!!!

after that, we bought drinks at starbucks together and toasted to the new year (and the end of a very successful BBSGB!) We waited until clifford, gavin, julius, eddie and some other friends to arrive before we walked to seah street to play pool at pool fusion! There, we met kelvin & baoling who joined us! (:

we had much fun & fellowship playing together... but at around 330am, we left the place and walked to bugis mac for breakfast at 430am! we ate heartily and i enjoyed every single bite! having eaten our breakfast, we strolled and sang our way back to city hall mrt! we had to wait for the station to open and for the trains to start! by then, it was almost 7am!

after saying our good-byes, we left for our own platforms and slept through our ride back to bishan. i rushed home asap and had a quick shower! i fell asleep as soon as my head touched my pillow (:

overall, my new year was quite awesome and i was glad to spend it with my new BBSGB friends! here are some photos of the whacky bunch:~

anyways, here are some new year resolutions for 2009!

1. To follow God's ways more closely everyday, living a pure and holy life!
2. To challenge myself to seize new opportunities given to me, making sure that my best is put in at all times!
3. To make a conscious effort to share God's love with my classmates so that they too may see and know the purpose of their life!
4. To grow to be more prominent as a leader in the Boys' Brigade and to leave a legacy of love and hope to all who i will meet!
5. To transform FISH & CO. to become a cell group that truly longs to shine for Jesus!
6. To excel in my studies through sheer will and determination to achieve good results!

God bless all my prayers & happy new year 2009!!! :D