so... now what?

i have done so many things already... in BB and council...

so..... now what?

i don't know what to do...

i know that i have to stop being involved in BB and council already..
although i have officially stepped down from both, i still haven't really let go of them and begun to focus on my studies...

i still feel so worried about them... although i told myself that i can trust them since they were sec3, since we were sec3 before and we slowly learnt to cope with handling the BB and council, so they should be able to do the same too... or maybe even better...

however... so many things have happened since we handed over our roles and responsibilties... things don't seem to be going well, yet they don't seem to realise that... i guess its coz us (sec4s) did not do a proper handover and did not teach them well... it could be that we still think too highly of ourselves... and feel that the sec3s cannot "match up to our standard"...

but is that really true?

i don't really know that answer... maybe someone could help me with that...

what i should be doing now is studying... but i don't really have any purpose now... i feel so tired all the time... i think i need a break... but can i even afford it?

the common tests, prelims and the big "O" are coming soon... one after another... God, please help me to make the right decisions...